rubik’s cube
my son told me how to solve the rubik’s cube. you focus on the parts you know and don’t focus on the parts you don’t know.
i am reading singer/songwriter brandi carlile’s book, broken horses, and she talks about the point where she’s on stage, about to open her mouth, and she has no idea what’s going to come out. the fear and the exhilaration of that moment. there’s a knowing that being on this stage is who she is while at the same time feeling awkward and uncomfortable. completely in the dark about what will happen next.
the knowing might be small at first. i know that i don’t want to cook dinner tonight. if i say that or act on that, i don’t know what’s going to happen. how people will react. what people will think of me. what i will think of me. it’s a risk. but my guide is to focus on the things i know, and the rest of the pieces will come together somehow.
we can have a knowing and a not knowing at the same time. it will always be like that. and it’s definitely a feeling we can get used to.