ugh, here it is again
i’ve been surprised by how much i feel embarrassed in life. how much i feel awkward and uncomfortable. how much i feel exposed.
it’s hard to admit it to myself.
i think because it’s a shock. it feels immature. it feels young. it seems like a feeling i shouldn’t be having as an adult.
but i do.
i’ve spent my whole life trying to never be exposed. but here i am. utterly and completely. exposed.
even though it feels so bad, i think i must be doing something right.